This really might be the most dramatic season finale of The Bachelorette.
But while Lindsay recently told PEOPLE she’s head over heels for her future husband, and that their relationship is getting “better every time I spend more time with him,” her runner-up isn’t in such a positive place.
“Their breakup was super heart-wrenching and he’s still devastated by it,” a source close to production tells PEOPLE exclusively. “Even after they filmed the breakup, he asked producers to see Rachel again.”
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On Monday at the live taping of After the Final Rose, Lindsay’s runner-up will get his chance to get closure with her, but “he’s super stressed out,” says the source.
“He is freaking out about After the Final Rose,” continues the source. “He’s so nervous about seeing Rachel and even asked for one of the guys from the season to be there for moral support.”
“At this stage in my journey, the goodbyes will only get harder,” Lindsay wrote in her PEOPLE blog last week. “This journey is coming to a close, and while I sit here and write to you all a happy engaged woman — it was not an easy road to get here.”
The Bachelorette finale airs Monday at 8 p.m. ET on ABC.